Third session.

today was my third counselling session. Some things that we went thru:

The thoughts I want to have on my deathbed: 

1. I did what I could.
   
2. I made wise decisions.
   
3. I helped people.
   
4. If I have any properties, that they are taken care of.
   
5. My family is healthy.
   

Every moment now, every path I choose to take, does it take me a little closer to my goals? 

e.g. what can I do today? 

• Buy takeaway lunch snack for a friend
  
• Continue revision
  

also what can I today to remind myself of my deathbed wishes? 

But you know, if I were to choose to die right after a particularly spectacular day, everything would be fulfilled. How awesome!

When is enough enough? I can't recall what the Dr said. 

it was essentially another person's take on the same issues that I have went thru with myself before.

that if I wish to get to my best, or simply better, I must first acknowledge my progress. or else never cross the chasm. 

anyway, my own steps were these: how to get the motivation to continue? think about what comes next. what are the steps involved? break it down man! Rome wasn't build in a day. don't be overwhelmed. 
oh and take your fucking medication. 

added: I can't believe I forgot to enter this the first time round. I have a real problem with responsibility. I evade it like there's no tomorrow. Apparently this is the reason why I choose to surf aimlessly instead of continuing with revision. and it's pretty accurate I think. Never made this link, on my own. Hmmm.